This is the humble personal webpage of a long-time internet dweller. I am hosting my own works, obsessions, and ideas on neocities so that I can worry less about my things dissapearing from public view as for-profit websites do.
Of course, nothing's really safe on the modern internet... Don't worry, there are SO many external drive and flashdrive copies of my work as well.
I work primarily on a laptop PC and don't specifically code for mobile. I enjoy building code myself instead of using templates. Sometimes I happen to update something in a way that make it more mobile-friendly, but it's not a goal.
AI and bots are not welcome on this website. I can't stop you, but I can tell you you're not welcome. I do not consent to this website being fed to a bot or used to train AI. If you want to trod on that just for your own profit, I strongly suggest you reevaluate both your priorities and your treatment of other people.
The default background of this website (as of time of writing) is the star map that was included in box copies of the 1992 video game Star Control 2. That link goes right to the Ur-Quan Masters, a cool website where some fans retooled the game to allow to play it on a modern computer. It's fun, give it a spin; I used its map as a website graphic because I have fond memories of pouring over it in wonder as I tried (and failed) to even complete the game itself.
The background on the Index and some other pages is a slice of the box art from Secret of Mana. It was drawn by artist Hiro Isono. This one image fills me with wonder; it's one of my favorite peices of art ever made. I usually have it as my computer background, too.
'Hail and Welcome' is a liturgical wiccan greeting found in traditional (and modern) ritual. It is the phrase used to greet a goddess or guardian spirit after they have been invited into the circle. "The goddess is with us," we say, "Hail and welcome!"
When I began my website with this greeting on the front page, I recognized and welcomed the divine within you.
Well met! My username is littlewhitemouse, or Mouse for short. I've been using this username here and there since 2011!
I heard that another person has actually used the same username on some gaming forums, but that they have passed on. I never met that person. If you knew them, my condolences; that person has not risen from the grave, I am another mouse.
Just to clear up any confusion, here are some links out to the few other webpages which are 100% mine:
My AO3 page! Most of the fanfiction on this website is on AO3 as well, though I can put the unpolished scraps and abandoned stuff that I wouldn't want to publish on AO3 here. I like having duplicates and mirrors of things, I've seen too many websites go down and take people's work with them.
If you stumbled on my fics on this website and liked them (how kind!) it's worth hopping over to AO3; some of my fics garnered modest followings as they went and the conversations in the notes are fantastic. I've had some perceptive and delightfully odd readers.
I have have two tumblr blogs in the past two decades, both of which proved transitent. The more recent of the two is this one. I used to use the username littlewhitemouse but lost access to that account and drifted back some years later as littlewhitemouseagain. There is little of interest here except the compulsive collection of pretty things, and, as oft I do, a little while ago I logged out and did not log back in. I can get distracted by social media for a while but stop having fun rapidly and usually leave websites like this after three years maximum. I presume should I reenter a website like this in 2030 I will title myself 'littlewhitemouseoncemore'.
That's actually about it! I don't often contribute to the conversation (if, truly, I ever do) in many places. I used to be a regular on Kintsugi and occassionally drop into Something Eternal but other than that, I still follow the ancient mystical law of Lurk Moar; Post Less.
Oh, heavens! A lady never discusses herself online.
Ha ha. Really, I'm not willing to give away any specific personal facts about me that can't be found by just perusing the website. I prefer an internet existence to be separate from daily life and try to keep it that way. A viewer will intevitably learn a lot about me by simply examining the content to be found here, and that is already as much soul-beaaring as I can stand.
My resistence to freely giving away sensitive personal information started when I was a teenager and I was asked by a group of peers to declare whether I was queer or not. They knew and I knew that they were asking social permission to target me for abuse. I was and am queer. I told them I was not. I continued to be queer privately and enduring minimal abuse.
This set the tone for my life, as this and similar encounters have convinced me with time that, like labor rights, civic sense, and tolerance, privacy is a good that can be slowly sapped away from a society if people violate it too freely and too often. Sticking to your rights and not willy-nilly violating them just to please others or win social points establishes an environment where they are normalized and you stand a chance of keeping them. Please stop willfully giving these thing up for hit counters or fleeting attention.
If you have further pertinent questions about my fics, wiccan practice, being queer, JRPGs from the '90s, world literature, dead languages, the medieval world, comparitive mythology, anti-fascism, or anything else you see here, we can do this old school.
Email me at traumaturge@proton.me and I will get back to you on my own time (slowly), reserving the right to not answer messages I hate or to respond flippantly to rude, unkind, or overly friendly messages. I know I'm not very easy to contact--I do not like to be easy to contact. But if you have something you just need to know, throw that line out to the universe and see what you get!